So my last ‘to do’ list actually panned out pretty well for me. I accomplished all the things on it. The time frame was stretched a little but none the less, I’ve achieved something. It’s like overcoming some sort of obstacle and what helped? I didn’t procrastinate.
Procrastination – my biggest hold back. My studio is at home and I therefore take it for granted. Most people would love to be in my position – A place to get creative, a place to hang work, a place that isn’t the living room floor – brilliant right? Well… I always feel that at home there’s always other things to do that priortise my need for creating art work, like cleaning, washing, cooking, straightening up and the list goes on – It’s often why I feel more relaxed whenever I’m away from home – but what I realised today was how much of a bad excuse this is, because the reality is – If I came to do some work I’d be separated from all the main parts of the house and therefore the ‘priorities’ would not be such, as they wouldn’t be staring me in the face – Leave it to another day.
I sat talking to E today in a cafe about having actually done some creative work and then instantly started reeling off the excuses to why production was likely to slow down – either there was something I need to buy or too much prep to be done or (suprise, suprise) I was just trying to keep my room too clean and therefore feeling limited to what I could achieve – Well this has to stop. I’ve since come home, I’ve sat cutting up paper to work on – rather then staring at the roll and thinking ‘maybe another time’. There’s about 60 sheets of paper now, waiting to be used – No excuse. I’ve cleared but haven’t cleaned the table – No excuse. I’ve dug out old paint brushes, old paints – No excuse. I’ve rummaged through portfolios for different papers to work on – No excuse.
So what am I left with? A room to work in, materials to work with and for once in a very long time a passion to actually do something as opposed to just saying I will.
So here’s whats happened so far…